it has been a while since i put up anything so i figured it might be nice to let people know that i am still alive. so there you have it, i live. recently i have been cruising the photo section of deviant art and it had me thinking about what i could do to be a bit more active with my da account. i'm not going to try and fool myself into believing that i am a photographer but i have recently gained access to a pretty nice 35mm slr so i thought, why the hell not. add on top of that the wonderful lizards that i keep seeing and it seems that we have an almost winning combination. so should gas prices ever decided to come down to a level where us mere mortals can afford it, i plan on grabbing the camera and visiting some of the desert and mountainous area around here and taking some nice nature shots. i will probably also be posting pictures of my growing collection of reptiles as well. there is suppose to be a local herpe show in october that i am looking forward to attending. i would also like to visit the one in tuscon, but again that whole gas thing gets in the way but we'll see. and that is it for now.

things were going so well, or aw well as could be expected given my current situation and then...pain. pain is nothing new to me, but usually it is something that exist only in my head(in the form of near constant headaches) and as drugs do nothing for me, i have a tendacy to ignore them. and then came new pain, pain that kept me up and plauged me no matter what i was doing. sitting, kneeling, laying on my back, side, whatever. it was something that i could not escape, still can not escape.

no one is sure what is the exact cause of the pain but they haven't stopped looking. i have gotten over my fear of needles, having been poked more in the last 4 weeks than in my entire lifetime. i'll live, but i must say that all of this has been a strange and interesting journey. especially with how useless i have become in the past weeks.

what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger, right? right.

-n.

she bang was a ricky martin song? wtf! i really have lost contact with modern music. and then the william kid from american idol. egads, i guess i only hear about them when they are at the height of their popularity, eh?

and it is amazing, i am watching the 50 most gawd awfully bad songs on vh-1 and no "Who Let the Dogs Out". what gives, that song is pretty bad, much worse than some of the songs i have seen thus far.

holy shit, i live!

on the other side of the world now, but i live. imagine that. i was hoping the plane would go down in the middle of the pacific and it goes and disappoints me. just my luck, eh.

oh well. guess i will have to force myself to enjoy what some might call an island paradise.

so for a bit i fancied myself an artist. it wasn't too bad, it was actually kinda fun but...it was only a head and i didn't much care for the hair. maybe i will try again, i have some ideas of what i would like...now to make them happen.

what else is new...today is the first day of the daily routine. more stupid shit and long, boring classes. i should study as i have a test tomorrow...there are lots of things i should be doing but i am lazy, lazy, lazy. oh, such a long day i have ahead of me and tomorrow shall be even better. let us make a joyous noise. at least i still have my fog, i do so enjoy my fog.

s-